It goes round and round and round and round and round.... without ever stopping at any times under any circumstances - and certainly not for anyone at all.
It was during Ramadhan this year that I realised how painfully true this mocking of the Life's usual monotonous routines are. It was like watching the same old movie over and over and over again, and you get tired of it but you can never really let it go - you can't really stop watching it just like that.
When I went to my school reunion-cum-buka-puasa this year for the second time, it was suddenly very clear to me that I had experienced pretty much the same things over the past year as I had in the year before. And it was very devastating to come to such knowledge and be caught unaware.
It made me realised how little I had progressed and developed as a person - how my miserable life is not really as miserable if I had only strived to become merrier and thus much happier.
It is quite sick actually, you know, to have to bear the truth that you are still stuck at that same spot in your life where you have not been able to escape. I was not exactly wrong to say and believe that "time will (and could) heal all wounds", but, boy, even when time flies so quickly, you just want to heal faster! And definitely, I want to achieve a higher level of living in this one year's period of time.
Rotating around the past cannot be an option.
But, why, oh, why is there still a hollowness inside?
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11 years ago
Babe, i hate school reunion. I think it is where some people want to show off. Its about the car i'm driving now - my trophy husband - the size of the ring on my finger etc.. etc. I hate those things.
ReplyDeleteBut regardless all these, I think you can be proud of something.
That those people who made you feel bad.. they just don't get one thing: you've changed.
You are no longer, the girl u used to be.
Change is good, most of the times, right?
ReplyDeleteBut I hope it does not alter the essences of our souls.
You are still my very good, close friend. Thanks.
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