it’s the 1st of Ramadhan today… and i’m wasting my time writing this stuffs when i should really go and masak sahur (or is it really THAt wasteful?)… I wish I went to perform Tarawih just now… But I guess it’s juz another wish at the moment…
i’m x even sure y i’m startin this blog. what i do know is that i really need to get all these unnecessary negative feelings and thoughts out of my mind, heart and soul - out from any nerves inside my body. I want to be and feel reborn - REBORN from chastity and pureness , squeaky clean from any sins… but that is juz impossible rite now, isnt it? 
and i also did sth very stupid tonite - i wasted time searching for someone (or rather something!) that i know never existed the way that i’d imagined it in my mind. as if my complicated ways of thinking isnt enough, my heart and emotions are running as wild as an untamed stallion at this very second! how easy it would be if i dont feel the way i’m feeling rite now…if i have more rationale and follow the logic rather than letting my emotions take better control of me (and then i’d be doing sth very useful - like cleaning up my scattered stuffs downstairs - and saves me from Mama’s nagging…DUH!)… HOW I WISH I’D BE THAT EASY!
i’m x sure what exactly it is that i’m feeling rite now, but i’m certain that i dont wanna dwell on it any further. It’s a brand new day today - and I’M STARTING A NEW BOOK on my personal and professional life. i wanna let go of all these ‘unnecessary binding chains’ and JUST MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE… like someone used to say, "Tidakku fikirkan kesedihan semalam kerna keburukan masa silam hanyalah perosak minda berwawasan. Lantas aku teruskan langkah berdiri dan berlari atas kakiku sendiri - lalui sehari demi sehari, menggenggam masa depan yang kian pasti!" GAMBATE!
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